That's All I Have

I never understood the point of a relationship, isn't it just friendship + a bit more love? I mean the only thing is that you have to say that you love or like eachother and shit... Anyway what is love? If you say that you love a person, can you prove that? Some people really jump off a building, but that are emos who like to prove you wrong and show that their love isn't a utopy.... Well he isn't alive to show you though! It's funny though, you like eachother, then you start loving eachother, then you're in love... First thing first: what the hell now? I mean people that are in a relationship, don't even tell eachother everything, they talk about eachother with their friends... Wasn't the first rule ''being honest with eachother''? Crazy people out here, I'm telling you.. But still, even if you are in a relation, it doesn't differ that much from friendship, the only difference is that you can touch and fuck with eachother... Was that it? Did you just wanted sex? That's no problem, but why act out the whole relation-thing? I'd never say explicit to a girl that I wanted a relation, saying that shit kills all the anticipation there was or should've been... Then you know what you're doing this all for, because you want something with eachother, something that shows that you love eachother. But if things like this are been said explicit you might as well quit the whole thing, I don't even know why btw, I just wanted to get this out. Things like this bother me like forever, they chase my thoughts! Last year it would've been math-calculations like ''880/20 * 21'' then I HAD to solve them, it wasn't a problem though, I'd have done that in seconds, not even! Nowadays I always have thoughts and I discuss them with myself, it's fun to, but too bad you can't share it with everybody... but not everybody would like to read it though. My point is: don't say things explicit, never say ''I want a relationship'' or ''But our relationship...'', search for alternatives like ''Baby, what we have ...''. A writer writes because he has something to say, a wound that hasn't been closed, the wound is a reason. If the writer finds out a way to close the wound, so if he finds out why he writes, the actual reason, he won't write anymore. Atleast he won't like he used to, because he has nothing to say anymore, the wound has been healed... Okay that was kinda random, but I just wanted to let y'all know this ish.

Acknowledgement

So I don't have a lot confidence, that's just the way it is, I used to get bullied because of my appearance so that did something with me. Anyway though, I'm not confident enough, but that is something I accept, by accepting that I acknowledge that I'm ugly at the same time. So when I be talking with people they notice sometimes that I have a bad thought about myself and they be saying ''Humair, you're not ugly, stop that!'' .... Forreal? You just told me that? So when you ask me: ''What haircut should I get?'' and I say ''Not a straight pony'' what the hell would you be thinking? Probably the same as me; ''WTF''. Like forreal, wtf should I think next? Don't tell me that I'm not ugly, better shut your mouth if you can't say me something nice -__-'. You'll probably be thinking that you helped me out, no bitch you didn't. That was some useless-ass information... I know I'm not ugly btw, otherwise I wouldn't get girls hahah, they (who like me) think I'm cute or something, because of my personality. Yes I háve a personality! I know you don't, at that point a lot of people would like to be me... a somebody. I don't really know why the fuck I blogged this, didn't want to gain attention or something, but I just wanted to get this shit straight. Have a nice day :-)