That's All I Have

I never understood the point of a relationship, isn't it just friendship + a bit more love? I mean the only thing is that you have to say that you love or like eachother and shit... Anyway what is love? If you say that you love a person, can you prove that? Some people really jump off a building, but that are emos who like to prove you wrong and show that their love isn't a utopy.... Well he isn't alive to show you though! It's funny though, you like eachother, then you start loving eachother, then you're in love... First thing first: what the hell now? I mean people that are in a relationship, don't even tell eachother everything, they talk about eachother with their friends... Wasn't the first rule ''being honest with eachother''? Crazy people out here, I'm telling you.. But still, even if you are in a relation, it doesn't differ that much from friendship, the only difference is that you can touch and fuck with eachother... Was that it? Did you just wanted sex? That's no problem, but why act out the whole relation-thing? I'd never say explicit to a girl that I wanted a relation, saying that shit kills all the anticipation there was or should've been... Then you know what you're doing this all for, because you want something with eachother, something that shows that you love eachother. But if things like this are been said explicit you might as well quit the whole thing, I don't even know why btw, I just wanted to get this out. Things like this bother me like forever, they chase my thoughts! Last year it would've been math-calculations like ''880/20 * 21'' then I HAD to solve them, it wasn't a problem though, I'd have done that in seconds, not even! Nowadays I always have thoughts and I discuss them with myself, it's fun to, but too bad you can't share it with everybody... but not everybody would like to read it though. My point is: don't say things explicit, never say ''I want a relationship'' or ''But our relationship...'', search for alternatives like ''Baby, what we have ...''. A writer writes because he has something to say, a wound that hasn't been closed, the wound is a reason. If the writer finds out a way to close the wound, so if he finds out why he writes, the actual reason, he won't write anymore. Atleast he won't like he used to, because he has nothing to say anymore, the wound has been healed... Okay that was kinda random, but I just wanted to let y'all know this ish.

Acknowledgement

So I don't have a lot confidence, that's just the way it is, I used to get bullied because of my appearance so that did something with me. Anyway though, I'm not confident enough, but that is something I accept, by accepting that I acknowledge that I'm ugly at the same time. So when I be talking with people they notice sometimes that I have a bad thought about myself and they be saying ''Humair, you're not ugly, stop that!'' .... Forreal? You just told me that? So when you ask me: ''What haircut should I get?'' and I say ''Not a straight pony'' what the hell would you be thinking? Probably the same as me; ''WTF''. Like forreal, wtf should I think next? Don't tell me that I'm not ugly, better shut your mouth if you can't say me something nice -__-'. You'll probably be thinking that you helped me out, no bitch you didn't. That was some useless-ass information... I know I'm not ugly btw, otherwise I wouldn't get girls hahah, they (who like me) think I'm cute or something, because of my personality. Yes I háve a personality! I know you don't, at that point a lot of people would like to be me... a somebody. I don't really know why the fuck I blogged this, didn't want to gain attention or something, but I just wanted to get this shit straight. Have a nice day :-)

#LovingYouWasWrong

So this dude Jeremy Greeme covered Dirty Money's ''Loving You No More'' and he kept Drake's verse, this version is actually a bit more ''appealing'' you could say. This guy can sing forreal so at some parts you'll be like ''Wow, this is better than the original!''. Overall, it is better than the original, but we can forget to get a video of this version... The song also kinda explains how I feel, so that's why I'm posting this shit in the first place haha.

9 AM in Dallas

''If you ain't got, you ain't got it''

-The theory is brilliant.

Doubt.

I doubt it, everything, even life.

I just might wake up tomorrow in heaven,

realizing this was all a bad dream.

Lil Wayne.... Awful

DAMN.

Top 20 ''Most Played''

I figured out it might be interesting to share my most played songs on my mp4, most of 'em are songs that are released this year, some of 'em are older. You might not know some of them and when you see some you be like ''hey that's my favorite!''... And behind the song I'ma put how often I've played it. Anyway though, here I go:

1. Lil Wayne ft. Dre - Red Rum [210]
2. Tyga ft. Lil Wayne - I'm On It [174]
3. Bow Wow - Roger That [159]
4. Ester Dean - Drop It Low (ft. CB, Weezy, Trey & Diddy) [125]
5. Drake - My New Shit [125]
6. T.I. - I'm Back [110]
7. Drake ft. Lil Wayne - Miss Me [102] 
8. B.o.B ft. Em & Hayley Williams - Airplanes Pt. 2 [98]
9. Big Sean - High Rise [98]
10. Trey Songz - I Wanna Rock [90]
11. 2 Pistols - Cash Money Dreaming [85]
12. Sean Garret ft. Lil Wayne - Girls On Girls [79]
13. Fabolous ft. Red Cafe - Tonight [77]
14. Eminem - Despicable [73]
15. Eminem ft. Lil Wayne - No Love [73]
16. Lil Wayne ft. Drake - Stuntin [73]
17. Drake - All Night Long (Premature Leak) [69]
18. Lil Wayne ft. Eminem - Drop The World [69]
19. Drake ft. Jay-Z - Light Up [65]
20. New Boyz - Give It Up [65]

I haven't listened to some of these songs in months, I just played them a lot in a short period and never played it again haha. So which of these songs are your most-played too?

Awkward, but true

''Not being with the one you love might give you the feeling

there's nothing to be here for,

but don't get it twisted,  you also have a life.''

The Playground Killers...

So I noticed Bei Maejor with this shirt on and I thought it was really dope and then I got on a site where they sell the shirt, it's really awesome take a look. It's for thirty bucks and in Euros that's almost 20 euro or something and that ain't shit! But shipping stuff... nah and I can't fit it, I can return it though but that's a too long process. Check it out though:

If you want to buy it, you can do it over here.

Mixtapes Of The Day

So today I bumped a few tapes during class, what else to do when you're bored huh? So anyway though, check out these mixtapes I like and I'ma tell you something 'bout them.

I'm not really somebody that promotes mixtapes so if I do you really should listen to them, anyway though, this mixtape is of Audio Push, you might know 'em from the clip ''Teach Me How To Jerk''.  This is (I'm not sure) their second mixtape and it's really fun to listen to! It's even worth to blog about apparently, these guys are kinda underrated and get compared to the New Boyz... You may compare them to New Boyz if you're talking about their originality, both are very original and creative. But their sound is nothing like eachother, they're on the same level of dopeness but aren't the same though. So this mixtape is about... well; girls, relations, fame, envy and that type of things, every song sounds different so don't worry about hearing the same thing over and over again.

Rating: 5/5

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Yeah I actually thought about this first before I putted this up, you see, I believe Roscoe Dash is the concept of what Soulja Boy had in mind about himself, Soulja Boy failed, Roscoe didn't. Roscoe is recognizable for his voice, it's always the same. He caught my attention with his song ''Feeling Like Dis'', it was about a girl blabla and it was cool, I had a good feeling about him. Later on he came with his song ''Show Out'' that became a banger in no-time. So after that a view videoclips, remixes and songs came and yesterday I saw this mixtape at HotNewHipHop.com and downloaded it. So while I was bumping this today, I stood still and realized: ''Damn... all the songs I listened till now, are DOPE!!'' and by then I was at 9/28.. And afterall I've got to say, his songs are kinda the same to be honest; his voice and the tune, but he still kills every song and it makes hella sense. You should download this if you hate Soulja Boy and want to see Roscoe Dash take his position over in this game!

Rating: 5/5

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